Roommates
Over the years I've had several roommates including college students, Bible thumpers, and friends... but I have to say, that without a doubt, I've never had a better roommate than I do now. I've rented a room in his house for almost 2 1/2 years now and I have never felt as welcome and 'at-home' as I do here. The rent is fair, and I've never felt awkward or uninhibited to be myself. He's lent me his car when mine was in the shop... shown compassion when I was in a tight spot with money and let me defer my rent... and has always listened when I had something to say... even if it was an awkward dramatic moment over a boy. LOL.
A few months back, my mom wanted me to buy a house here in town; and while I had strong reservations about owning a home (something I don't think I'm quite prepared for just yet), the biggest hurdle was that I'd lose such a great roommate. He even said it'd 'suck' for the same reason. I consider myself quite lucky to have been introduced to David and I know that when I eventually do move out on my own, it'll be a hard thing to do.
When Grizzlies Attack
"Us dysfunctional relationship people should be handed a book of pictures of what is normal and healthy for the rest of the world."
Well... I can't say these past few months haven't been interesting. I still can't sort out all the feelings and emotions I'm feeling from this experience, and I'm afraid what I have already felt, isn't the last of it. Self-loathing, self-doubt, depression, anger, disgust, weakness... all these and more are running through me and I can't seem to sort them out. I used to think I was a very rational person... but I can't sort out what my mind is saying is the right thing to do, and what my feelings... my heart... is feeling/telling me to do. There wasn't any cheating involved... no big breakup... nothing that would normally warrant such a strong emotional reaction on my part; but, I can't help but feel that I was completely played... and continued to be played - even though I knew better. I certainly won't deny that I wasn't complacent in what followed that first week; but still... I should have known better.
Ever since that first weekend in August, I've been on the longest and most emotionally draining roller coaster... and what makes it the hardest is I've never had to, nor know how to, deal with this type of situation before. It made it so difficult and stressful, and I still don't quite know what to do now. I really felt, and still feel, as though I got my heart broken... and I know that sound corny and ridiculous. I believe the way you feel about each person you become romantically involved with is unique and you can't compare one to another; but, you can certainly tell when one of them hurts you. I am trying to be realistic and practical about the entire situation - take it for what it is, and move on from there - the last thing I ever wanted was to be dramatic, but drama creeped in and I feel like it shouldn't have gone down like this. But as a mentor of mine always says: it is what it is.
Now just need to figure out where to go from here. I don't understand how some people cut others out of their life... I feel like that's a cop out... the easiest thing way out... but how can that be right? Just because someone hurts you, you're supposed to pretend they don't exist? Write them off? Avoid them? Why don't more people want to work it out? Losing a relationship, romantic or friend, feels so... unacceptable. Maybe time does heal all wounds... maybe I'm still being overly melodramatic. Where's the fast forward button to move past all this? To get to the chapter where we're friends and having great conversation over coffee again? Am I that wrong for wanting to remain friends... to salvage it? Maybe I'm a glutton for punishment... but I believe there is good in everyone... I believe in giving people the benefit of the doubt, even when most would say they don't deserve it.
What's next, I wonder. Here's hoping... everything happens for a reason, right?
Unleash your SkinnyGay!
Yes, that is TOTALLY what she signed my book with! I wasn't going to buy the book ('cuz do I really need to thin down?? LOL), but then realized I didn't have anything else with me for her to sign so I picked up two copies, one for me and one for mom.

She's great in person, same personality that you see on RHoNY so you know she's not a fake. Hope she visits Las Vegas more often!
Her book signings for me & mom after the break...
Hate Speech: Vegas Style
After dancing the night away with a very cute boy at Krave, I drove him back to Caesar's while the sun was coming up this past Sunday AM. As I parked the car in the garage, we exchange a [few] kiss[es] in the privacy of my car. A few moments later, a car parked to the left of us and I hadn't noticed until I heard them speaking. Four guys had seen us kissing, and I expected a comment or two, but the next things I heard were shocking. As I noticed their presence, I put a stop to the kissing so I could be aware of what was going on incase it escalated. While I waited for them to leave, the comments became louder and more distinct. The next thing I heard was "fucking faggots, I hope you get AIDS". This wasn't something muttered under their breath, or said in passing - it was directed right at my car and it was loud as my windows were completely rolled up.
I couldn't believe what I just heard. Now making note of everything I could, we waited for them to leave. Instead of just dropping off my passenger off, I decided to make sure he made it safely to his room in case these men children thought to do something else. On the way, I stopped by the front desk and asked to speak with a manager as I wanted to voice my concern about this abuse and to request action be taken. While we waited for a manager, the guys who attacked us left one of their friends to check in for them while they walked away. A manager greeted us (Mary Horikawa) and I explained what had happened and requested that these guests be turned away from the property - to which she replied, there was nothing they could do as it was not witnessed by any hotel personnel and the altercation did not involve physical violence.
This is COMPLETELY unacceptable. As a resident of Las Vegas - I expect the industry to protect it's citizens, who generously patronize its establishments. I am furious that this behavior is not only tolerated, but somewhat encouraged as nothing was said to these individuals who felt they could verbally abuse two people who were exchanging a kiss in their own private car. Verbal abuse is just as hurtful as physical abuse - if not more so.
I have been called 'faggot' and 'gay' before - but this stepped over the line of acceptable behavior and I will not stand by and do nothing. Caesar's management's dismissal of my complaint should not go unnoticed. I felt completely demeaned and left with nothing but anger and disappointment that people can get away with this type of abuse.
I contacted my friend Frank who helped get in touch with Harrah's Guest Relations and Security so they can hopefully review the tapes. Thankfully there are options: if security can see these guys yelling at my car, they have enough to escort them off the property without refund. While my original goal was to have them escorted off property, it is now to make management aware of this and to have their supervisors coached. She should have offered to contact security, at the very least to make them aware and to keep an eye out for them. I am thankful to have friends who can help make this town a better place for everyone, regardless of their orientation.
I'm also thankful that I was smart enough to take a picture of their license plate:

If you are in Las Vegas, and you see this Volvo... well... you know.
Oh… by the way… I WON!

"What did I win," you ask? A $500 Dinner Credit for Brand Steakhouse at the Monte Carlo! Thanks to all of my Twitter Followers, and Blog Buddies who helped vote, re-vote, and retweeted my voting link! You guys rock and I appreciate your support!!! I'll be sure to post a review and perhaps some pictures when I cash that voucher in... now... just to decide whom to invite along... the dinner is for 4 people.
The Home Stretch!
We're in the final few days of the Most Popular Twitterer Contest hosted by MyVegasScene.com and I'm falling behind quickly! I need your help! Please go to http://abersparky.com/vote/ to vote for me as the Most Popular Twitterer in Vegas and keep voting each day through the 30th! I'm down by about 100 votes now so I need a really big push these last few days. Please vote, re-vote, and ask your friends, family, neighbors, postman, boss, co-workers, repair man, trainer, and anyone with Internet access to go and VOTE! Help me win!
I also did a YouTube Vote Plea... I'll be posting another one tonight (hopefully) so be on the look out!
<3 Christopher
JACKPOT!
I finally won my first jackpot after after 1 1/2 years living in Vegas last night!

Adam was teaching me how to play video poker on the nickle slots. I was getting the hang of it and almost hit a few big hands but then all of a sudden, it hits... A - J - K - 10 - Q ... all of Hearts! Adam grabs my arm - the one which was still sore from the gym btw - and his eyes got real big and he screams, "YOU GOT A ROYAL FLUSH!!!" Apparently that's a good thing 'cuz it pays the highest on that game! I won $200 which was how much I had already spent on slots - so all in all, I walked away happy that I won and got my money back! HA!
Snow in Vegas (aka Hell)
This is the e-mail I received from my mom Thursday morning, the day after our big snow fall:
Vegas is Sin City...
Sinners are in Hell...
It's snowing in Vegas...
...therefore, Hell is freezing over.
Love,
Mom
Mom's got jokes!
27 Days Completed… 3 more to go!
That's right folks! I'm almost to the finish line. This Tuesday will be the last of the 30 day sobriety test I put myself through and I have to say... not that hard. It was rather odd at first though - but after that first week - things just carried on without much difference. Yesterday was a test though... I was invited to go to Carver's Boat Birthday Party on the lake. I haven't seen that much alcohol in a very long time and everyone except one girl was drinking - a lot... but I made it through the day.
Today, Monday, and Tuesday should be a cakewalk and I have to say - I'm rather proud of myself. Carver had mentioned that he does it every year, 30 days before his birthday and I think I'm going to adopt that plan. August 1-30 will be my Sober 30.











