The things you find out through casual conversation while shopping for shoes with a friend… *shakes head*
Saturday had to have been one of the most ‘rollercoaster’ kind of days that I’ve had in quite a while… I had to take two showers yesterday. One just didn’t feel like it was enough to wash off the “blah” feelings. But the weekend’s over and I’m over it all… well, most of it at least.
“sometimes it’s best to be in the dark
because in the dark, even though there is fear…
there is hope”
Another year, another lonely Valentine’s Day. But that’s ok. Hey! (That all rhymed… cute… Anyway… hey, that did too!, ok ok, I’m done) In any case – it’s ok – I think of Valentine’s Day as just another holiday to gorge oneself with unnecessary sweets and buy flowers that’ll be dead in a week. Neither of which I have the money for. Speaking of money – I’m down to $40 – and it has to last me til next Friday. I hate money – really I do. Probably because I never have enough of it and I always have to give it up to bills ‘n such. I finally got out of a large majority of my debt – and what happens, medical bills. Damn pre-cancer. But… raises go into effect March 1. So that’ll be a little extra to help out.
Let’s see, what else – Bill’s moved into the city… turns out my place wasn’t good enough for him. HAHA, naw – it was just too much of a hassle to travel to Georgetown from here, which is totally understandable. I’m so glad he moved back. He definitely helped when I had my surgery and kept my spirits up. Sucked after he left and when I got all depressed ‘n shit, but that’s gotten better now too. Probably because I’ve come off the Percocet and I’m working again – no time to be sad. Just the way I like it.
My first day back in the office and I spent over 11 hours there. Only two main reasons though: 1) lots of work to catch up on and, 2) more time outside of the apartment. These past two weeks have been so taxing on my emotional state. The other day I sporadically bursted into tears three times. No provocation or reason… just BAM – tears. I thought it could be the stress of everything… the surgery, financials, being cooped up in the apartment for a week with little company. Not to mention coming off all the Percocet I’d recently stopped taking. Who knows. Things are getting back to normal. Recovery is slow but steady, I’m almost back to 100%.
Help, I have done it again // I have been here many times before // Hurt myself again today // And, the worst part is there’s no one else to blame // Be my friend // Hold me, wrap me up // Unfold me // I am small // I’m needy // Warm me up // And breathe me // Ouch, I have lost myself again // Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found, // Yeah I think that I might break // Lost myself again and I feel unsafe // Be my friend // Hold me, wrap me up // Unfold me // I am small // I’m needy // Warm me up // And breathe me // Be my friend // Hold me, wrap me up // Unfold me // I am small // I’m needy // Warm me up // And breathe me
After TextAmerica decided to begin charging for their site – I set out to find another moblog. I think I finally found one I like and that I can import through RSS. Lifelogger is great with many features besides just posting pictures from your camera phone. Check it out!
Hey! (That all rhymed… cute… Anyway… hey, that did too!, ok ok, I’m done) In any case – it’s ok – I think of Valentine’s Day as just another holiday to gorge oneself with unnecessary sweets and buy flowers that’ll be dead in a week. Neither of which I have the money for. Speaking of money – I’m down to $40 – and it has to last me til next Friday. I hate money – really I do. Probably because I never have enough of it and I always have to give it up to bills ‘n such. I finally got out of a large majority of my debt – and what happens, medical bills. Damn pre-cancer. But… raises go into effect March 1. So that’ll be a little extra to help out.
