“Happily Ever After” are just stories that haven’t ended yet.

I swear I’m menstral. I am on that damn rollercoaster with my emotions… except lately I’ve been at the bottom of the hill way too often. I find myself depressed over something that I knew wouldn’t happen or come. I’ve met a few guys that I think are great, and one in particular I’m really starting to like. But it seems that it’s so hard to spend time with him; I get so frustrated and sad when I don’t get to see him. I’m fuckin’ depressed now writing this thinking about how much I miss him. I love being close to him but it’s only for a night and then another two weeks of nothing. What do I do? I’m not even sure if he wants to date or anything like that. I keep thinking about it, but I’ve yet to even broach the subject, slightly in fear of rejection. I always hear something to the effect of: “I think you are very dateable, but I would not date you.” I feel like I screw up any chance I may have with a guy by being too eager… too excited. What’s wrong with that? I mean, honestly, what is wrong about being excited about a guy??? Especially if you’re pretty picky about who you date and this guy fits the bill. I dunno… I’ve learned not to be ‘clingy,’ but I still think that’s how I come off sometimes. And I read way too far into things that aren’t even there. *sigh*

IM Conversation of Note
Tim (5:05:02 PM): Sup?
Me (5:05:06 PM): the sky
Me (5:05:08 PM): clouds
Me (5:05:10 PM): airplanes
Me (5:05:11 PM): birds
Tim (5:05:34 PM): your a cock
Me (5:05:42 PM): :-D
Tim (5:05:43 PM): you’re reather
Me (5:05:48 PM): you’re*
Me (5:05:54 PM): rather*
Me (5:06:01 PM): www.dictionary.com
Me (5:06:10 PM): take a lesson or two before you try to speak again
Tim (5:06:11 PM): ouch! lol