XXXXXXXXXXXX (9:51:13 PM): alright i have no clue in hell why im doing this, but i figured that its been a year since we last talked and i just thought that i would hit you up and see how you were doing. should you feel so inclined, hit me back… if not, its cool
I haven’t decided whether or not to respond. :-\
It makes mah heart bizzle strong, n can shorten mah breath . Freak y’all, into the beat y’all. I find rhythm witin tha beats, n begin follow’n each note ta tha nizzle. Anticipizzles in some cases, of whats ta come next; otha times, its pure relaxizzles n contentment . I thought i told ya, nigga I’m a soldier. It expresses so many emotions, feel’n, situations, n resolizzles . Chill as I take you on a trip. It gives comfort ta those who now find themselves doggy stylin’ tha same predicizzles n need guidance . Boo-Yaa!. Music . One, two three and to tha four. It pulses though our souls n drives us. Mizzle find it hard ta resist tapp’n they feet, n gang bangin’ ta tha beat. I love music. It helps me express so mizzay T-H-to-tha-izzat I could not in any poser F-to-tha-izzorm. Ive posted many lyrics over tha pizzy week or tizzy all of which have a very deep mean’n ta me . Nigga get shut up or get wet up. I find comfort in these songs n tha words conveyed. Sometizzles jiznust ta sit n listen ta tha harmony n melody of a song is all it takes ta calm me diznown fizzle a stressful day at work… otha times an upbeat remix of a popular song chea me up fizzy a depression fo my bling bling. While rapping ta someone ta hizzay you grieve is sometizzles B-to-tha-izzest, music can also serve as a sound’n board (unintentizzles pun). There is times when I cannot F-U-Double-Lizzy express mah pain until it is harmonized in S-to-tha-izzong. I am one who holds emotion inside… music is mah weakness. The powa of music is so bootylicious n I cannot imagine mah life witout it. I heart music.
Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.
-Dr. Seuss
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The Oscars – February 27th, 2005 – 8:00pm (EST)
Art Direction & Set Decoration
(Presented by Halle Berry)
THE AVIATOR
Dante Ferretti (Art Direction); Francesca Lo Schiavo (Set Decoration)
Best Supporting Actor
(Presented by ?)
Morgan Freeman
MILLION DOLLAR BABY
Animated Feature Film
(Presented by ?)
THE INCREDIBLES
Brad Bird
Makeup
(Presented by ?)
LEMONY SNICKET’S A SERIES OF UNFORTUNATE EVENTS
Valli O’Reilly and Bill Corso
Costume Design
(Presented by Pierce Brosnan & {girl from Incredibles})
THE AVIATOR
Sandy Powell
Actress in a Supporting Role
(Presented by ?)
Cate Blanchett
THE AVIATOR
Best Documentary Feature
(Presented by Leonardo DiCaprio)
BORN INTO BROTHELS
Ross Kauffman and Zana Briski
Film Editing
(Presented by Kirsten Dunst & Orlando Bloom)
THE AVIATOR
Thelma Schoonmaker
Adapted Screenplay
(Presented by Adam Sandler)
SIDEWAYS
Screenplay by Alexander Payne & Jim Taylor
Visual Effects
(Presented by Jake Jillenhall & Ziyi Zhang)
SPIDER-MAN 2
John Dykstra, Scott Stokdyk, Anthony LaMolinara and John Frazier
Honorary Oscar (Presented by Al Pachino)
Sidney Lumet
Short Film (Live Action)
(Presented by ?)
WASP
Andrea Arnold
Best Animated Short
(Presented by ?)
RYAN
Chris Landreth
Cinematography
(Presented by ?)
THE AVIATOR
Robert Richardson
Sound Mixing
(Presented by Penelope Cruz & Salma Hayek)
RAY
Scott Millan, Greg Orloff, Bob Beemer and Steve Cantamessa
Sound Editing
(Presented by Penelope Cruz & Salma Hayek)
THE INCREDIBLES
Michael Silvers and Randy Thom
Best Documentary – Short Subject
(Presented by Natalie Portman)
MIGHTY TIMES: THE CHILDREN’S MARCH
Robert Hudson and Bobby Houston
Music (Original Score)
(Presented by John Travolta)
FINDING NEVERLAND
Jan A.P. Kaczmarek
Honorary Oscar
Roger Mayer
Music (Song)
(Presented by Prince)
THE MOTORCYCLE DIARIES
“Al Otro Lado Del Río”
Music and Lyric by Jorge Drexler
Actress in a Leading Role
(Presented by Sean Penn)
Hilary Swank
MILLION DOLLAR BABY
Foreign Language Film
(Presented by Gwyneth Paltrow)
THE SEA INSIDE
Spain
Directed by Alejandro Amenábar
Original Screenplay
(Presented by Samuel L. Jackson)
ETERNAL SUNSHINE OF THE SPOTLESS MIND
Screenplay by Charlie Kaufman; Story by Charlie Kaufman & Michel Gondry & Pierre Bismuth
Actor in a Leading Role
(Presented by Charlize Theron)
Jamie Foxx
RAY
Director
(Presented by Julia Roberts)
MILLION DOLLAR BABY
Clint Eastwood
Best Motion Picture
(Presented by ? & Barbara Streisand)
MILLION DOLLAR BABY
Clint Eastwood, Albert S. Ruddy and Tom Rosenberg
Hey, Sup wit cha? You dont know me and im new to Myspace…but yo i read your blog and i was facinated. You’re really an interesting kat. It made me laugh…and almost (not quite) cry – the part about music yo….dat was mad deep. I’m an avid lover of music, particualrly jazz of the 20s,30s and 40s, and i totally understand what you was talking about. As a native to DC …i must say that i hope DC dont burn you yo….it tends to do that and turn attractive, cute, interesting, artistic people (like yo self) into bitter, borning, sarcastic, workaholics…who wouldn’t know fun if it beat them ova da head (…oh im soooo close to that …it aint even funny!) Any way slim…im about to be out and off to the theatre for yet another day of fun…interesting work…yeah …right! (why does art have to be so painfull?) Be Easy Stay Fly Holla back -Slightly
I’m glad I checked my MySpace account tonight. This message was waiting for me and I gotta say, it has definitely lightened my mood. Thanks man. 
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I just want to scream at the world. I sometimes feel that no one can/will help me when I need it the most. I’m in the worst situation right now, financially, and I am doing all I can to help myself but it’s not enough. Commission is non-existent at work, and I’ve had to take on shifts at Friday’s up in Towson to help with the bills which are already overdue. I called Comcast tonight to have them shut off the cable, but even shutting OFF your service merits a fee of $13.95 for them to pick up the boxes. I’m already overdue about two months worth with them and it’s just getting worse. I cannot remember the last time I paid my student loan (which is in part off of my mother’s credit) and my medical bills from when I burned my hand and had to go to the hospital are about to go to collection. Rent is going to be in part late this month due to the lack of funds and I’m going to have to pay a 5% late fee on top of that. This is the worst that it’s ever been. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve asked practically everyone in my cell phonebook and on my buddy list and received almost the same response… “I would, but.” I swear if one more person says that I will scream! “I would, but” means “I would, but you’re not worth it,” in most cases. At least that’s how it makes me feel. I even was judged by someone else who gave me a whole load of “emotional advice” which was NOT helpful in a time of need like this; and on top of it, he told me that it was my fault! THANK YOU VERY MUCH CAPTAIN OBVIOUS! I’d think that I’d know this considering I’M the one living the consequences! Among other things he talked down to me, the same way he did when I turned down his offer to join a company widely known for it’s practices of a Pyramid Scheme.
I’m at my limits, credit and emotional. I feel like I’m backed into a corner and getting the wind knocked out of me every time I look at a bank statement. I got hit with another $160 of overdraft fees from my bank because I somehow overdrew my account again (previously had overdrafted and was assessed $360 of fees, $96 of which they waived because I practically cried)! All I know is that I hope that my car holds up driving to and from Towson… she is soooo ready to quit on me, I just know it. I just pray that the site (possibly two) I’ll be doing for Mike will get done quickly. That’s $650 right there; and with the $10/hour I’ll get from Friday’s I should be ok… but… rent is still going to be late. I guess it’s just another casualty I’ll have to endure.
Why is it that I can never cry when I want to? It always happens when you’re in a public place in front of the people who you wouldn’t want to be caught dead crying in view of.
I’ve been thinking a lot about Zach lately. Not quite sure why. :-\
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It makes my heart beat strong, and can shorten my breath. I find rhythm within the beats, and begin following each note to the next. Anticipation, in some cases, of what’s to come next; other times, it’s pure relaxation and contentment. It expresses so many emotions, feelings, situations, and resolutions. It gives comfort to those who now find themselves living the same predicament and need guidance. Music. It pulses though our souls and drives us. Most find it hard to resist tapping their feet, and gyrating to the beat. I love music. It helps me express so much that I could not in any other form. I’ve posted many lyrics over the past week or two, all of which have a very deep meaning to me. I find comfort in these songs and the words conveyed. Sometimes, just to sit and listen to the harmony and melody of a song is all it takes to calm me down from a stressful day at work… other times an upbeat remix of a popular song cheers me up from a depression. While talking to someone to help you grieve is sometimes best, music can also serve as a sounding board (unintentional pun). There are times when I cannot fully express my pain until it is harmonized in song. I am one who holds emotion inside… music is my weakness. The power of music is so great and I cannot imagine my life without it. I heart music.
There are songs which say so much… thank you.
A Love That Will Last
-Renee OlsteadI want a little something more
Don’t want the middle or the one before
I don’t desire a complicated past
I want a love that will lastSay that you love me
Say I’m the one
Don’t kiss and hug me and then try to run
I don’t do drama
My tears don’t fall fast
I want a love that will last[Chorus]
I don’t want just a memory
Give me forever
Don’t even think about saying good-bye
Cuz I just want one love to be enough
And remain in my heart till I dieSo, call me romantic
Oh I guess that must be so
There’s something more that you oughta know
I’ll never leave you
So don’t even ask
I want a love that will lastForever
I want a love that will last[Chorus]
I don’t want just a memory
Give me forever
Don’t even think about saying good-bye
Cuz I just want one love to be enough
And remain in my heart till I dieSo, there’s little more that I need
I wanna share all the air that you breathe
I’m not the kinda girl to complicate the past
I want a love that will lastForever
I want a love that will last
Always
I just want a love that will last
I want a love that will last
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I ask you… who throws out your child’s rubber ducky?! My mother! That’s who! While at the mall today, we went into the Bath & Body Works store and they were selling rubber duckies of various colors and I picked one up. When my mother turned around and saw what I had, she blurted out, with no hesitation, “oh, I threw your’s out the other day.” I was like, “You did WHAT?!” Who does that?! A childhood toy which shared so many bathtimes… now resides next to old spaghetti sauce and junk mail. I couldn’t believe it… so I made her buy me a new one. 
Had a pretty relaxing day today: woke up around 9a and had breakfast, checked my e-mail and got the paper. Decided to read the paper in bed and ended up falling asleep again and not waking up ’til around 1p. Mom called and I made plans to meet her at the mall around 3 (where I was devistated with the news of my beloved ducky). We had lunch and shopped a little. It was good to see her again, I hope to do it again soon!
Real Men of Genius
Today, we salute you, Mr. Constant Collar Putter Upper. You, bedecked in popped collar, teach us that we no longer have to live with a cold back of the neck. Sure, your pink alligator polo may look feminine to some, but not to the 17 other frat guys wearing the same thing at the bar. Where others may see thoughtless fashion conformity, you preach a higher gospel. You preach of a world where it is okay for a man to go tanning. So crack open an ice-cold Bud Light, Mr. Abercrombie because we all know, when we really need a piece of gum, you might have one… in your man purse.
