Ya know… I am thirsty…

Hey all:

Just to let everyone know, this is now my new domain for my personal site. I plan to make the other (AccessDenied) a portfolio site to show my site design work, and I may also create a seperate section for some of the really, really good shots of me from photoshoots. As for right now, the only thing I have up is this journal which took me forever to format. Thanks to Dan Cederholm for the great start on the layout! Still workin' on the graphics and such, but should soon have the rest up and running.

And thanks to Blogger for the invite to try out Google's Gmail! This thing gives you 1 GB! of e-mail storage so you never have to delete another e-mail ever again! Apparently these accounts arn't that easy to come by so I'm glad I got one, and more so by the fact that I have something to brag about.

This weekend was Baltimore Pride; I was planning on going to the fair today but just don't feel up to it. Maybe next year. Hope everyone's weekend is going/went well.

Slinkies

Some people are like slinkies... not really good for anything, but you still can't help but smile when you see one tumble down the stairs.

Psycho Dyke!

Oh this is going to be a long one...

Let's see, where to start, where to start? Well, first off, I can't find my wallet. It was in my bag and now I can't find it and I'm not sure if I left it in my other pants or if it's on my desk, or worse, lost; and there is no one home to check for me. :-\ I hate this feeling... I think I know where it is but I can't be positive which is really worrying me. I am really hopin' it's in my pants or on my desk at home. I really don't understand why I'm so damn thin... I eat constantly; even more so now that I'm worried about my wallet. I'm sittin' here chowin' down on a tube of Pringles, was workin' on the tub of Party Mix we have here at work, and yesterday I ate a double cheeseburger, crispy chicken sandwich, supersized fries, and six-piece chicken nuggets from McDonalds; plus, I ate a whole bunch of snacks and such when I got home. God bless high metabolism!

And just to let everyone know... do not, I repeat, DO NOT get wireless services with SunCom! They're way of doing business is underhanded, slighted, and dishonest. I'm on hold right now for their customer care supervisor for a customer I activated. He had SunCom and moved to Baltimore, which is outside the SunCom service area. We're licenced partners with SunCom and from our understanding there would be no termination fee for him switching to AT&T; but just to make sure we were correct we called their customer care on the 8th to see if this was correct. (Yes I am going to spill the entire story so sit right back down and keep reading... ) The care rep he spoke with told him there would not be a termination fee, however he would have to begin service with us (AT&T) before cancelling his service with SunCom to serve as proof that this was not just a ploy to get out of the contract with no penalty. We activated him on the following Sunday (13th) and after we setup the account and he signed the contract we called SunCom back like the rep told him to do, he is told there IS a termination fee and there are no notes on the account for the 8th stating what the rep told him. After a week of him and I both calling and speaking with several "supervisors" I finally got a wonderful supervisor who totally helped us out and she waived his termination fee. I suppose I didn't have to really go through all this, but when my commission is on the line and when I've been through the same sort of situation when Cellular One was tryin' to charge me for a termination fee when they turned off my phone, I just feel for the guy. Like Mark said... "the squeaky wheel gets the grease!"

Speaking of grease... this fuckin' dyke (yes, she's a dyke) called my phone last night at 1:30 AM! I was up but you don't call someone you don't know that late! I picked up and asked "do you know what time it is?" to which she responded, "I am so sor-," and I hung up; THEN, she blows up my phone all day and when I finally call her back to see what was so important that she had to call me at 1:30am about she tells me that her "gurl" was playin' with her phone and burned out the SIM card. Right, like I have spare SIM cards under my pillow and I was going to drive over to her house AND have access to Siebel to be able to do the SIM swap!!! OMG!!! I put her cell number and her house number under "Psycho Dyke" in my phone. No way in hell am I pickin' up that phone again for her, no matter what.

By the way, just found my wallet! All is well Aight, it's time I get workin' on some things for my site and what not. Just to let everyone know, I finally got new hosting and a new domain. I think I will keep both but I will make the new one my main site and this one for... well... I dunno yet, hehe... but when I get that all set up I'll let y'all know. Peace!

I knew I should have eaten something…

What a weekend! Went to DC yesterday for the Pride Parade, had a blast, although I did get drunk, which I hated. I'm normally very responsible when it comes to drinking; mainly because I have to drive myself, or others, back home. But after the first drink, I knew I was gonna get hit... and hard. I was fine until we got to the restaurant after the parade. I sat down and knew that night was not going to be any fun; Jamie took me back to his apartment and stayed with me the entire night. I could not believe it; normally in that situation the so-called "friend" would just dump me off before returning to their friends for the rest of the evening, but Jamie didn't. It was so early in the evening too, I felt horrible, I think we returned to his place around 8.45. He forfeited going to Nation as well as anywhere else everyone might have gone; I don't even think he even got to eat. I am so grateful for him. He's been nothing but kind to me and I love being around him, we click so well, and last night he really racked up the brownie points by staying with me to make sure I was ok. I miss him. I wish I could have gone to the fair today, but I had to work even though we're closed on Sunday! UGH! They decided about a week ago that we were to have a Friends and Family event of which I only had one person coming in for, so I pretty much wasted 5 hours of my time which I could have been in DC at the fair with friends. Although I was told that it wasn't that great this year; Luke said I was better off not going and Jamie said it was not his scene, which means it was TOO gay! LOL! I would have liked to go though, at least to see what it's all about. Oh well, there's always next year!

I've become absolutely enthralled with Adam's Journal!! I'm just entirely captivated by his words and how he forms them; they flow so poetically and I love reading every word. I just had to share this one excerpt with everyone:

Don't be stupid and try to think before you speak. Let the worlds flow out of your heart, head, hand, and open your mouth to let nothing come forth. Words exist before you even think them, and to those who really understand, they're already spoken before they enter your mind. The best conversations I've had with those I love are the ones in which we don't even need to speak, and further, don't even need one another's presence. The words morph into a series of feelings and instigations and filtrate into the air- the air becomes cool and the wind pauses and the world it shuts down, allowing the words to flow in such a way that they are the only thing that matters.

How beautiful is that?!

Perfect

"Why is it that we only tend to believe the negative things people say about us, no matter how much evidence there is to the contrary, a neighbor, a face, an ex-boyfriend can cancel out everything we thought once true. Odd, but when it comes to life and love, why do we believe out worst reviews?"
- Carrie Bradshaw

On top of the world to the underside of a rock…

Today has been nothing but a rollercoaster. Work was fine until about 1 and then I just felt like shit. No apparent reason, just down in the dumps. I got a response from one of the e-mails I sent about a room and I was so excited about it. It's a townhouse and the two girls who live there are renting out the third room. Sounded great, talked to the one girl and she's great, and the price is great as well as the location, after leaving I was so excited; but as soon as I pulled up to my house my demeanor just plummeted. I felt so depressed as I walked back in my house and to my room. I don't know what brought this about. I've acknowledged that fact that I'm scared shitless of moving, but that alone wouldn't make me this upset. I miss Seth and NY so much, as well as Jamie. I feel so comfortable when I'm around them and whenever I'm not around them I only miss them more. I've thought that I might want to move to DC, but I that's so much more work to move there. I'd have to transfer locations with work and all, plus the cost of living is a lil bit more expensive there. I don't think I'd be able to afford it. I love the atmosphere though, but I also love working in Baltimore. That's primarily why I love living in Howard County, it's pretty much smack-dab in the middle of the two; but I end up missing my DC friends so much when I'm away from there, that all I want to do is go back and never leave. I find myself creating this world separate from my home life, that as long as I don't go back, it can last forever; and when I finally tear myself away (or become ripped) from that world, I get depressed that I have to return back to what I was trying to get away from in the first place. This whole moving thing is such a big step and I'm afraid that I won't be able to do it on my own.