Mixed feelings…

Wow… today was something… I’m not really sure of how to feel. I’m nervous about Sunday, yet I’m also excited because I get to cook for Zach. I’m still very worried about my financial situation, but I think it’ll all work out. Heather lent me $50, out of her pocket, to get my checking account back into the positive after I asked her if I could get an advance on my paycheck. OUT OF HER POCKET! I couldn’t believe it! I tried to refuse but she wouldn’t let me leave until I accepted. I am so thankful to have a manager and a friend like her. AND on top of it, she gave me this AWESOME dinner to make for Zach and myself this Sunday. I cannot wait to do this.

What else…. hmm… oh, yea, mom decided to hold back on sending the loan papers for my courses until I pay her for car insurance. Of course I agree that I need to pay her, but I just don’t have it right now. Last time she just put the shit on her credit card and I payed it every month and then when it was paid, I took responsibility for the finance charges which had accured on it. I just don’t understand why she can’t do that this time too. She knows I’m having a difficult time right now and it feels like she just wants to make it worse. Ugh!

Well, since I’m strapped for cash, I should get to bed so I can wake up and go in tomorrow morning and pick up a shift before my shift tomorrow night. G’night all…